THE GOOD, THE BAD and THE UGLY!

I promised the "good, bad & ugly" and you are getting just that. This week had some of all of it!

Specifically the good:

• I was a way to live it pro/guru this week. I managed 5 meals a day - walked to and from work (6+ miles on work days) to and from pt appointments on the other days. I was really in the flow this week and it felt wonderful!!!!!!!!
• At one of several doctor's visits yesterday, since it was the 5th, exactly a month since I started bringing you along with me on the day in day out nitty gritty of way to live it - I weighed. Down from 220 - 215! yeah right?!

Specifically bad:

• I was taking a 5 day round of oral steroids. These absolutely could have been listed on the good side because ALL the pain went away and absolutely had something to do with the above mentioned "high." They also had me retain liquid and bulk up a bit and because 1) the effect is unlikely to last 2) I don't usually submit to any such medical advise, against my own best instincts. I also had a rough few days at work - not able to deal with the latest changes - lack of focus...

Specifically ugly:

• Upon arriving home yesterday, from weighing at the doctor's office, feeling great, feeling like I look great, waiting too long to eat meal 2 and going grocery shopping while hungry!!! Not to mention "HEAT!" I got into cool comfy clothes, closed the house up, turned the ac on (another thing I rarely do) and began to eat. I ate all day, late into the night. Very little that was actually bad for me touched my lips but the quantity and constant incoming of it was "ugly."

Today, I am up early, it is cool, rainy, cloudy and wonderful. The house is all open trying to catch/feel every moment of it and I have had my usual Kashi Autumn Wheat breakfast. The only "ugly" thing in my life is the mess I left the kitchen in after yesterdays episode.

Not even a hiccup! It is just another day in my way to live it.

I can surmise why yesterday occurred and philosophize about it, but I'm not! It happened! Today, this meal, this minute are new, fresh and everything is about NOW! No regrets! No punishments! No whining or dragging it out!